Better

I have to get better.  I absolutely have to get better.  I realize my insufficiency.  I realize my weakness.  I realize that I am but a mere created being.  Here today, gone tomorrow.  My life is a gift.  I do not have it all together.  I do not have it all figured out.  There is a drive within me to get better.  To be better.  To do everything I can each day, to be the best version of myself.  I so want to be an example.  I so want to be a strong leader.  Someone to follow.  I have to get better.  There are areas within my life that I can improve.  Areas that need to improve.  I cannot allow myself to let up, to settle, to allow complacency to take root.  Complacency destroys.  Complacency kills.  I cannot allow myself to get distracted.  I cannot allow myself to lose focus.  I cannot allow myself to give into worry, fear, doubt, or negativity.  I have to press into discipline.  Self-discipline.  I have to press into the pursuit of the uncomfortable.  I have to press into my Creator.  The little things.  I have to continue to do the little things.  Master the little things.  When I don’t feel like it.  I have to overcome my feelings, my emotions, my own negativity.  I have to overcome the negativity that surrounds me.  The negativity produced by the people who come in and out of my life.  I have to overcome the pull to get sucked in.  Sucked into gossip, backbiting, anger, instant gratification, and self-indulgence.  Every day is an opportunity to learn.  Every day is an opportunity to be the man or woman you want to be.  Every day is an opportunity to get better.  I want to get better.  I have to get better.  I embrace the toil of this process, the process of getting better.  I embrace today.